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Eh. Blog? Omg. I forgot your existence. Hahahhahahaha x

Dear god.

"Sheila's interning at NUH? Nurse ah?" I don't even know how many times have I heard this line. Whatever. I am starting to feel really dreadful for this internship. I don't even look forward to it, not even think about it anymore. I always try to see it in a positive way but I guess having someone to always tell me that the place's shit, makes me feel shit. I hate being around negative people because of this but what the heck, who can I be with if not with these negative people? There are only us there, not much? Would love to complain in details but the school would probably kill me.

I had the scariest dream/nightmare last night. Probably because I have not been doing my part as a Muslim lately. I have become negligent. Astaghfirullahalazim. I dreamt that I was surrounded by really big black figures, all around me. They wanted to pull me into Christianity. I instantly woke up with my heart racing real bad, literally istighfar-ed repeatedly. I've never felt so scared in my life. I sat up in the corner of my bed, looked around. Felt as though something was staring straight at me. I kept istighfar-ing, then switched on the lights and the radio. My heart was still racing like crazy. I went to Mama's room, wanting to wake her up, but I honestly, don't know why I was really scared to talk about it. So I went to the toilet, wash up and went back to my room. Kept reciting ayat qursi, all the way until I fell asleep. I swear I was terribly scarred from the dream.


Anyways, Happy Mother's Day, Mama! You're the best Mama I could ever ask for. I love you like how Madeline loves her bread and butter. I know we don't kiss or hug, but I always feel safe and loved around you.  My mom, she's amazing, she really is my everything :') I love you, Mama.

I'd put up a picture of her with me but my parents hate it when I upload their pictures online so yeah, have fun trying to search for their pictures if you want to. Heh heh.